I Doubt It: But I Still Have Questions

“My God, how painful is this unknown pain… I have no faith. I utter words of community prayers – and try my utmost to get out of every word the sweetness it has to give. But my prayer of union is not there any longer. I no longer pray.”

Unless I see the nail marks in his hands and put my finger where the nails were, and put my hand into his side, I will not believe it. John 20:25 

A week later his disciples were in the house again, and Thomas was with them. Though the doors were locked, Jesus came and stood among them and said, “Peace be with you!” Then he said to Thomas, “Put your finger here; see my hands. Reach out your hand and put it into my side. Stop doubting and believe.” John 20:26–27

For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God. Romans 3:23

For the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 6:23

But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Romans 5:8

That if you confess with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord”, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved. Romans 10:9

If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness. 1 John 1:9

And anyone who does not carry his cross and follow me cannot be my disciple. Luke 14:27

I give up the right to do whatever I want to do with my life.

I give up control of my resources to God. I give up the pursuit of the world’s values.

I lose the satisfaction of knowing my purpose in life.

I will face this world alone.

I don’t get to live the abundant life He has planned for me on this earth, and I forfeit eternal life in Heaven.

“The only thing Christianity cannot be is moderately important.” – C.S. Lewis